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Ok, my previous post was stupid. Anyways, the O'levels are almost done! ;-)

God made me with medium eyes, big nose,bad skin, short legs, short body, fat body !!!!!
but God made that girl with big eyes, nice lashes, perfect skin, sharp nose,skinny thighs, skinny body. Just made this girl perfect. But made me this ugly little midget.
I dont feel like going out or for prom or for anything. I just wanna stay home and be obese
please dont have any comments about this post okay? Please? It's kinda like my own problem.

tangent

is it not annoying that people care more about a boyfriend of a couple of months than a friend of years? I don't get it why people always try so hard to mend a bgr rather than a friendship. It's really stupid. really, what's a happy wedding when you have no friends to celebrate with? You brought your self here. Seriously.

To the other, Im her substitue. When she had a boyfriend she did not bother to contact me. When her relationship turned sour and ended, she contacts me. How annoying is this? Everyone I know is this way.

When they've got better socialy enhancing friends they stop contacting me. When they find out I know someone who they think has a social class or scene they start sucking-up their damn asses to me.

Please, don't assume I'm reffering to you. I've got so many friends with boyfriends & exes. Furthermore, I'm reffering to 3 people. Could be anyone.

At this point, I can't hate anyone. I still love everyone even though practically everyone is super mean to me..Gosh, I'm such a drama queen! LOL

Time to study! ciao

in moments like this

What a ride it has been?
Decisions I make in November/December 2009 will change my life forever. I'm keepin my fingers crossed and my head focused. Is it really needed. Illusions they are. I know. Imense pressure? I brought it upoon my self. no one should be blamed. oh dear God.

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I miss my life,my friends,town and freedom. I miss shopping, I miss hanging, I miss doing nothing, I miss long sleepy days, I miss December 2008, I miss life, I miss being 15, I miss Jiaying, I miss Charlene, I miss Kelly. Somehow,I miss Daryl Yow. I miss Elizabeth. I miss fooling around in school, I miss the movies. I miss having the skatepark. I miss ambra, I miss Sarah, I miss tings. I miss 2008s Halloween. I miss Samantha. I
miss being in primary school. I miss jers. I miss 3 being a kid. I miss believing that there are good people here in this
world. I just miss everything.

Can my agonizing O'levels end already?

Currently flipping intensively through my social studies notes. Hoping to get every last bit of information into my brain.

Taylor Swift does not get along well with imense revisions. Blast her music and you see me dancing hystarically and using a bloody pen as a microphone. ...Imagining myself to be her.

Around a year ago, I allowed my self to believe 3 bloody liars while they lied to me in the face. Instead of trusting my intuition, I trusted those 3. Pity.But that chapter has been closed a long time ago. Wasen't the least bit affected by it so I'm good :)

okay I shall stop procastinating & start studying!

Happy Studying!
Happy Novemeber!
Luv! :*

Ps:Nov 11 come quick!

O'level Update!

hi! should not be posting up here but I thought I'll fill this space on how I've faired in the past papers. English was pretty alright. But I thought the essay topics weren quite vague and I was lacking
creative cells at that point. I finished my papers in time but I did not get time to check. Math was alright but I dint get to attempt the tougher questions as I dint exactly have time to complete the papers :( Amist mugging for Social Studies now,I need my A for combine humanities.... well all the best! Thanks for the truckloads if encouraging texts I recieved.. Happy Halloween! Enjoy this stormy Saturday <3 -Jaaziel

Jaaziel, please study hard.